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Everything seems to be out of place. My heart can’t feel and my anger and sadness have taken over me. I used to cry and then feel better… But now all I want to do is cry. We aren’t the same; we all change! I just want to be happy again. Why can I not have that. I feel like I am missing out on so much now. I just need to get back out there and be the person I know I am. But I am scared of rejection. I don’t want society to reject me at all. I don’t want to reject my self. I also feel so alone. I don’t get what I want anymore, I have fallen to be un-noticed. My feelings about a situation gets ignored, I’m getting ignored. I just want to go back to where I cried and I was all better again. I want my sad face to mean something. I want all the pain to leave me alone and I need company to warm me up again. Hope has left me. Love has forgotten me. Sadness and anger keep me company… I want them to just go away!